Fragments of Reconstruction: Journey Beyond Survival
captured by royel, 2025
when i emerged from treatment, the world had transformed. weighted. altered. my body bore the marks of struggle, my spirit - once vibrant - now felt fragile and uncertain. my mother's eyes held a complex mixture of concern and hope when she spoke, her words soft but laden with meaning: "focus on your healing, mitchell."
i had promised her a novel. a testament. something to prove my worth, my survival. but healing, i would learn, isn’t about grand narratives or external validation. it’s about the quiet, brutal work of reconstruction.
what i did instead of writing that novel:
i learned to breathe deliberately
meditation became my lifeline
each breath a negotiation with survival
silence my most profound teacher
i reconciled with my physical self
yoga: a practice of radical acceptance
each movement a declaration of resilience
learning to inhabit my body without shame
i created without words
art as a language of trauma and healing
watercolors bleeding into raw emotional landscapes
expressing what language could not contain
i built connections with fellow survivors
support groups: sacred spaces of shared understanding
collective pain transformed into collective strength
realizing isolation was a choice i could unmake
i excavated my inner terrain
therapy: an archaeological dig of the soul
unearthing buried narratives
confronting the shadows i had long avoided
i practiced uncompromising self-compassion
journaling: a ritual of radical honesty
documenting the non-linear path of recovery
embracing vulnerability as strength
i nourished myself intentionally
cooking: an act of self-preservation
each meal a deliberate choice of care
nutrition as a form of resistance against destruction
i transformed pain into purpose
volunteering: converting personal struggle into collective healing
my experiences becoming bridges of understanding
recognizing that survival isn’t individual act
the novel may still emerge. but now i understand - my life is the narrative. each moment a page, each breath a sentence, each struggle a chapter of profound meaning.
to my mother, who whispered wisdom when i needed it most - i heard you. in hearing you, i found myself.
- mitchell royel